it’s like a jackhammer behind my eyes

You guys there is a story I want to share with you, but it involves things that I don’t want to announce to the whole g’damn world. It’s all about fate and how I believe whole heartedly that everything does happen for a reason. I’m still trying to figure out how to share it with you. Tonight it’s all I can think about, but my head has been throbbing since about 2:30 this afternoon so it’s going to have to wait until another day.

I know that’s such a teaser, I truly apologize.

In other news:

I woke up this morning thinking it was Friday…it obviously, is not.

I’m going away this weekend to the east side of the state to stick my feet in Lake Huron and enjoy the sun on my face. I bought yet another pair of running shoes so I’m excited to find some trails.

I got a voicemail yesterday that made me smile and cringe at the same time. The message consisted of an awkward thank you and lots of pauses. It made me smile because I wasn’t expecting it but I also cringed because of all the awkwardness on the other end.

I have cemented the fact that no matter what, I will never agree with c when he says rude things about my dad and this irritates c to no end. I don’t think I should apologize for this. He is my dad and the only immediate family I have left. I wish c would realize and accept this.

I HATE when I’m having a moment of reflection and I am in a quiet mood and someone asks me if I’m crabby. And when I say no they argue. WHY DID YOU ASK IF YOU ALREADY HAD AN ANSWER?! Even if it was the wrong one.

I have so many things I want to say but they seem trapped in my head.

And now I’m going to lay down before my head explodes and someone will have to clean up the brain matter.