Reaching back through cobwebs

I’m curious to know if you have a person in your life (a friend, relative, acquaintance) that consistently makes you feel like an airhead.  Not on purpose, maybe it’s just my perception of our conversation (even though they are for the most part online). I know I do and  I’m meeting him and his wife while they are in town this week.

I don’t know it’s just like every time I talk to him I read something wrong and respond in a ridiculous way.  I have a feeling this is because…

  1. I met him when I was 18.  He is 4 years older than me.
  2. We had some downright dirty IM chats for more than a year when I was a student worker.
  3. He might have set it up (read called my boss and said he needed help) so I could go into an abandoned office to makeout with him.
  4. When I moved back from Florida he became my boss.
  5. He gave me a glowing recommendation when I found my current position.

Haha so funny.  Haven’t really thought about that in a long time.  While we are on the subject of old co-workers…

When we picked up the bunkbeds for the cottage it meant driving out to St. Claire Shores.  I haven’t been there since I stopped talking to JT.  JT and I met when at the beginning of freshman year of college.  We worked down the hall from one another as student workers.  We didn’t become closer friends until probably sophomore year.  Long story short we were always trying to get together in a normal relationship kind of way but the universe kept shutting us down.

Our first date was to meet a friend of mine in Canada.  We both got pretty buzzed (when he woke up with a hangover the next day his dad commented that maybe he shouldn’t have drove home…lol) but he refused to kiss me when I dropped him off at his car on campus.  Confused, he later told me because he didn’t want our first kiss to be like that.

I’d have a boyfriend so he would back off and remained friends.  Sometimes it was harder than others but we never hooked up while either of us was in clear relationship status.

I’d take a break from the boyfriend and we would pick back up with the flirting, stealing kisses in empty offices, having sex on a desk after everyone had left for the day (you’ve done that right?!)

This went on for 3-4 years.  We just couldn’t get it to work.  There were a lot of parties, shared cigarette breaks, he was the one I needed a hug from when my mom passed away.  I still remember him opening his arms up to me in the hallway of our office.  We watched each other grow.

We had another co-worker, HP  (6 years our senior), that sat through our little escapades a lot and offered advice.  In her words she was like our big sister <— keep this in mind for the twist in my story –

I met C and we moved to Florida after graduation.  At my first job I had AIM and would chat with my former co-workers.  To this day I can’t put together why I pushed JT on his friendship with HP.  I even went so far as offering the solution of them moving in together because they both wanted to move out.  I kept pushing trying to find out what was going on.  I think deep down I knew they were dating, how I knew is a mystery.

When Florida didn’t work out and I came home, they were dating.  To make it even more awkward, I found out through someone else.  And to add to it, I had taken a temporary position in the same department.

HP was no longer my “big sister”.  She was awkward and rude to me.  I hadn’t done anything.  To this day I can only think that her pushing me away had to do with her guilt.  I found a job 3 months later. After a year or so I emailed her asking if we could do dinner to catch up.  She replied she was going on vacation and she’s get in touch with me when she got back.  She didn’t.

She got deployed and I heard rumors that were confirmed that her and JT had gotten married before she left.  This was 4 years ago.  I’m over the hurt I felt, the betrayal and the shunning. A piece of me still wants to reach out, make peace and catch up. She was a huge part of my life.

What would you do? Let it go? Put yourself out there and send an email?

Yoga, wedding and a walk

I’m still feeling really crappy with a cold I’ve been trying to fight off. I was going to do multiple posts but I’m so excited about this weekend that I think I’m going to cram it all into one. So you’ve been warned 🙂

Saturday morning was my last aerial yoga class of the session and I probably won’t sign up for another one until the fall (if I have the money). I adore it, if you can’t tell by how much I talk about it. I did a whole trick that included a drop (that I may have made me scream as a fell). In case you care, diaper stag – swingset – locust – forward drop – hip something.

Saturday night I attended the best wedding reception ever! It was held at the Henry Ford Museum. It felt like I was in a movie at fancy, classy party. More importantly, since we had the whole museum to explore with an open bar it was easy to escape having to talk to family! Though my drunk relatives were pretty entertaining. This includes Maeko, who I didn’t even get a picture with because I only saw her twice in 5 hours! Her dress was absolutely gorgeous and very Mae. Here are a few of my favorite pictures, please notice beer on the rosa parks bus – FTW

Sunday was the Detroit Zoo Kidney Walk. My Dad, LP, C and I walked around the zoo. The weather was beautiful and it was nice to spend time with them.

Only d-bags think my bday was no fun

Some birthdays are more memorable than others. This year my birthday started a full 4 days beforehand and was one that I will always remember.

Though a d-bag co-worker told me that I’m not living my life as a 20-something, as I’m not having enough fun. He says that I’m more of a 30-40 year old. What?!

And a more positive story… at taekwondo we got 2 new students. One being a 20 year old guy (“21 in a couple days” *pumps fist). I didn’t talk much to him but another student asked where he was going to college and he asked us both where we went. I replied WSU but I had graduated. He’s congratulated me thinking I had just graduated. I smiled and thanked him and told him I had been out of college for 5 years now. His eyes might have bugged out of his head. He didn’t think I was a day over 23. Woot! I won’t even tell you I got carded for tobacco 2 weekends ago…

I could tell you…

…That C has been having extreme shoulder/neck/back pain for the past 2 weeks. He went to the doctor and was prescribed vicodin which hasn’t helped with the pain. So he went back to the doctor’s today and they gave him stronger (scary) meds, ordered a CT scan and think he might need physical therapy.

….This means I haven’t slept consistently at night for over 2 weeks because he’s constantly tossing and turning.

…I have my final tonight and I’m SO glad. This class has been a nightmare. No direction but homework and final projects are expected to be done and handed in. I didn’t learn anything except that I can somehow manage to grasp enough knowledge to pass the 2 tests we had. Please cross your fingers I can pass the final tonight!

…I started making cookies last night. I need to make at least 4 more batches. I’m not sure where the time for that is going to be though.

…I’m excited about getting cupcakes with Ashalah tomorrow!

…I had a dream I was hanging out with a blogger from New York last night. It seemed really real. Is that weird?

…Speaking of dreams, I have a recurring dream about the same person and we are repeating the same situation every dream. The only things that changes are some of the dialogue and the setting. It’s realistic and the setting reflects the time of year and things that are currently going on in my awake life. It is truly bizarre.