I’m a pretty confident girl. Sure, I have my days where I feel disgusting but for the most part I don’t complain. Of course I check out other girls but I never feel a real jealousy. I think she’s pretty and move on, we all have our positive attributes.

With the exception of this one girl. I don’t even know her, she’s an ex-boyfriend’s girlfriend/fiance and every time I see her picture my confidence deflates. (Thank you Facebook!) I know how ridiculous this sounds. Believe me. She’s the kind of girl that makes me want to starve myself and eat a container of chocolate chip cookies simultaneously to make myself feel better.

Since I have no willpower to give up food, I usually end up doing the latter. She’s tall (5′9) and slender, something that I will never, ever be. Clearly, by now I’m done growing topping off at 5′3 and I’m not built to be slender. I’d classify myself as athletic and not just because I play sports. She’s probably graceful and not a huge klutz like me. You get the picture…

I guess on the bright side whenever I’m feeling way too happy or good about myself , I know how to get rid of my big head.

Do you ever feel this way? Why? Who? I’m not the only one, right?

These past couple of Mondays have been awful for me. Today I’m blaming it on the fact I haven’t slept well. I’ve been dreaming like I’m watching tv. I don’t know the people in my dreams and it’s just life that’s going on. Last night was all about this woman getting married on the beach. I don’t even know, it was boring but I couldn’t “change the channel or turn it off”. I’ve also been running around since Friday and I don’t think my mind ever had a chance to unwind.

If you follow me on twitter you might have saw my annoying tweets about not going to taekwondo and then yes I am going. I called my dad to tell him I wasn’t going to make it but then was filled with this shame, like I was being a disappointment for not going. After a half an hour of feeling like I made the wrong decision I called him back and said I was coming in.

I test in 12 days! I have to get 6 photos to turn in with my 1st degree application. I will be considered a weapon. Heh, me a weapon.

I worked from home on Friday. I think I actually worked harder on Friday than during the week because I not only worked for work but I cleaned the bathroom, did laundry, dishes, ran to target and made it to taekwondo. It was crazy. I got up at 9 and didn’t sit down until 4 to watch Lady Gaga on Oprah and then left to go to taekwondo. I’m tired just thinking about my Friday.

Saturday was a lot of errand running after I got my ass kicked at sparring.

And Sunday, oh Sunday. I met up with Ginger Mandy and Sarah for our first aerial yoga class. It was so much fun! I can’t wait to go back next week. And these ladies are all kinds of awesome.

I’m hella shy and I’m definitely guilty of lurking on many blogs.  I think my subscriptions are at 174 and I probably comment on 30? Maybe.

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• Coffee. How do you feel about it?
• If you could only have one fruit for the rest of your life what would it be?
• What kind of underwear do you wear the most of?  Bikinis? Boyshorts? Thongs? Granny Panties? Boxers? Tighty Whiteys? Something I haven’t mentioned?
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